charlie’s mama has cancer

I had a nightmare that I was lost and so upset trying to find my loved ones to look after me but they all just told me to fuck off and I wanted to die woke up shaking and crying lol yay going to therapy in an hour

I turned my alarm off because I went to the cafe around that time and had my meds with me but then I forgot about them and I only remembered when I realised I felt really fragile at like 5pm and I’m so tired right now and the washing machine started beeping and I burst into tears. Well done, Molly.

Welp ocd that’s lovely just what i need compulsive obsession with something being just so

I just realised that I completely stopped listening to music. Even when I’ve been at my lowest point of depression I always had music.

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But so seriously I am really tetchy today because I’ve had no sleep

I just really love Jennifer Lawrence because on a scale of physical attractiveness under all of the make up I’d consider us pretty close and anybody who knows me knows I’m in love with myself but other people don’t often see me that way and it’s still nice that after having such poor self esteem for a long time that somebody of the same attractiveness be so…. attractive.

Also she’s just ridiculous and flawless and down to earth and it’s stunning to see a celebrity like that and she’s my role model okay I am Jennifer and Jennifer is me.

I fell asleep on the sofa because i was petting bea. She came back to visit me after i tried relocating to my bed and that failed. I think tonight we can chalk up an hour of sleep. Huzzah.

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